Today marks the one year anniversary of the day I found out my Grandfather passed away. I can't believe it's been a year. Last year I was in Goesan Korea when I read an email from my mom telling me the news. It still feels fresh, I haven't felt the pain in a while but it's still there. I'm on jeju island in Korea and it hit me just how much I miss that man. He was my inspiration for everything. I credit him with most of my perspective and soul.
After camp today, I walked around the farm streets by myself. The moon was full and shinning a bright yellow color. The roads were empty and the only sounds came from the wind blowing through the trees and occasional korean dog telling me to move on. My eyes swelled as I remembered how much it hurt a year ago.
I don't know how to express how I feel right now but I keep coming back to the thought that I am so incredibly lucky to have known that man. I could never in my life have a better role model than Granddddadddy. When you love something so much it only makes sense that it hurts when it's gone so I can't feel bad for myself, I have to learn from it. I must realize that I still have him with me everyday, now more than ever. I will make him proud. I will never forget who I am and that makes me so unbelievably lucky. Even though he is gone, I can still hear him telling me to stop traveling and get home, I will listen to him one day.
I love you Grandddadddy
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